When The Cat’s Away…

It’s Day 27 of National Poetry Month and for today’s prompt I created a veritable word casserole, heavily peppered with literary devices to accentuate an “anapodoton “poem, a term this writer had to look up. (You deserve a huge gold star if you didn’t!)

As Robert Brewer of Writers Digest explains:

“An anapodoton is an unfinished phrase that a person can fill in the blanks, phrases like “When in Rome,” “If life gives you lemons,” “Speak of the devil,” and “Where there is a will.” For many (if not all) of these, you probably filled in the second half of the phrase, because you know it so well.”

For my stab at an anapodoton poem, I chose “when the cat’s away.” I hope you enjoy my fun little word play! 


When the cat’s away

the mischievous mice have a mighty mirthful time lazing about,

pretending to be the “big cat “him/ her/ themselves. 

They grandiosely stretch and warm their pudgy little mice bellies

in the brightness of sunlight beaming through the bay window, 

and when fully satiated by that, 

they rise slowly on their ten teeny tiptoes and putting on their best aloof faces, practice their slinking strides,

laughing hysterically and applauding attempts to be feline-ish

before engaging in the “Don’t Blink” game,

as they stare into the depths of each other’s protruding eyes,

demonstrating their best catitude,

finally rolling raucously onto the pompous predator’s  bed 

with the sole intention of slathering it with their mice-ness 

and squeak-roaring in mice-mob ecstasy at the thought of

driving said surly cat crazy

with the mystery of what in the name of holy catnip happened, 

when those measly miniature murines came out to play.

CRR

4-27-23

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Jar of Hearts

Welcome to Day 26 of National Poetry Month. I took a week off, but I’m back! Today’s prompt was “Jar of Hearts”, which I just so happen to have a few of, so I immediately connected with it.

It’s actually jars, plural, several, transparent glass,

placed here and there,

coquina beach treasures full of salt and symbolism.

Remains of sea life, that joined together and

transformed themselves into

heart shaped talismans,

each one unique in its ability

to draw me down to the sand and rushing tide,

calling me to take them home and let them reside

within my gaze, admired and frankly hoarded,

like the words inside my head and heart.

CRR 4-26-23

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Dear Children, We’re Sorry

Day 19 of National Poetry Month

photo by Christian Keybets on Unsplash

We worried that you’d fall and skin your knee.

We worried that you might get injured in sports.

We worried that you’d adjust to new schools and make good friends,

but we never worried that you’d ring the wrong doorbell

or pull into the wrong driveway,

or approach the wrong vehicle by accident,

and be shot.

Shame on us.

America is a gun.

And we’re so sorry.

4-19-23

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Inside The Silences

Today is Day 18 of National Poetry Month and the prompt was “Inside the Silences”.

Photo by Kayla Farmer on Unsplash

Decades old silences still echo off the wood-paneled block walls.

Inside of them, visions of iridescent hope

that floated like soap bubbles through the air,

possibilities dwelling inside of trepidation,

homeostasis sought in a hostile land.

An answer could come,

permission might be granted,

understanding could be stated,

recognition might be conferred.

Less likely forgiveness offered

or praise bestowed,

but still,

until a word was uttered,

and before she grew weary of holding her breath,

all of those potentials existed to help her survive

in illusory, fragile spheres

enveloped in cellular fear,

inside the silences.

CRR  4-18-23

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Rainy Days and Mondays

Today is Day 17 of National Poetry Month and also a rainy Monday where I live. I got the idea for this prompt this morning as I was puttering around on my lanai, watering plants, and laying out my latest batch of bleached oyster shells to dry. The weather here is mild and the quiet rain and 65-degree temperature convinced me to sit outside and write. Immediately I thought about the verse from a 1971 Carpenters’ recording, “Rainy days and Mondays always get me down”. 

Like you, I’ve traveled through (in my case, MANY) different seasons of my life and Mondays don’t bother me anymore because I’m fortunate enough to be retired. There were however certain working years when they weren’t my favorite of days. Certainly, rain can and has caused disappointment when activities have to be canceled, and the negative impact of lack of sunshine associated with rain is even recognized as a cause of a type of depression called Seasonal Affective Disorder. But of course, we couldn’t survive on this planet without either of them, sunshine or rain.

Rain is universal, and holds differing levels and layers of meaning for all of us, according to our individual circumstances at various times. So, while today’s offering will never be classified as Poet Laureate quality, it is a personal rainy day memory from several lifetimes ago, that 43 years later, still brings a smile. I hope you have some of those too.

I remember when the rain meant 

slow, delicious, sexy days for us.

You and I and all the pleasures.

Not caring if it ever stopped.

Like honey from the heavens.

Those glory years in Hotlanta

where I grew myself up

and we both learned much 

about love and loss.

CRR

4-17-23

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Communion

Sunrise, morning medicine, my personal church at the pharmasea. These were the inspirations for my Day 16 contribution to National Poetry Month.

A straight line of gulls skirt the tide line,

cool sand and warming waters greet my world-weary feet

as gentle off-shore winds blow morning kisses on my cheeks.

Waves crash symphonically and remind me to go with the flow,

to not succumb to the undertow of the day,

to smile and let the quiet light,

the delicate pinks and mellow blues

restore my soul.

CRR

4-16-23

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Shadows

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It’s Day 15 of National Poetry Month and today’s prompt is “shadows”. Here is my offering.

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How many of us have stood in the shadows,

afraid to step out,

relishing the safety of staying hidden,

consumed by someone else’s

and scared to step into the light and create our own?

CRR

4-15-23

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Darkness and Light

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Yesterday I awoke from an afternoon nap, saw the red digits on the clock showing 5:30, and because we have tinted windows and really good plantation shutters, I sat up in the darkness and thought it was the next morning. I wondered why I couldn’t remember what I’d had for dinner or what we did that evening before I went to sleep. What was happening to me, to my mind?

Darkness is like that, it obscures. It wasn’t until I rose to open the shades that the light informed me that it was in fact 5:30 pm and I was not losing my mind. Light does that, it illuminates and makes things clear. The truth is we can’t appreciate one without the other.

Morning.

I rise hazily and immediately make the bed

to begin my day with a small sense of accomplishment.

I flip up a section of shades and

circles of light create a pattern on the comforter

and as I replump the pillows,

I contemplate the naming of that bed covering,

because we are always looking for that, aren’t we?

Comfort.

The morning light shines in and gives that.

It heartens us, confirming that we have awoken again,

declaring a new day, a new beginning,

a new chance to chase more of the light that gives us all of life.

To notice the beauty around us

and remember it,

to create more beauty,

to be the loving, light-bearing humans we were all meant to be,

even, and especially

when the darkness falls upon us.

CRR

4-14-23   

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Blank Mind Haiku

It’s Day 13 of National Poetry Month and almost everything about the day so far has been positive, except for the fact that I seem to be suffering from “blank mind”. Unlike previous years, when I’ve worked from one certain prompt list, this year I’m scouring the world wide web until I find one that strikes me. After three unsatisfying hours of searching, I decided to write a Haiku about the only two things that have spoken to me. 🙂

The damn cursor blips

and the stark white screen stares back

at me not writing.

CRR 4-13-23

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A Sound Poem

Welcome to Day 12 of National Poetry Month. Today’s prompt was to write a “sound poem”. This one was delivered to me as I sat on my lanai this morning. I hope that like me as I wrote it, you can not only hear, but also feel it.

Spring winds whoosh through the gangly pines and they answer back in sways.

Nearby, construction vehicles beep and bang the poetry of progress.

Distant roars of traffic from a highway blend in

to declare everyone and everything is in motion.

A hidden bird caws loudly from the preserve and I wonder what message it’s relaying.

One street over, a lone dog barks his response.

I tune my ears to the April winds and their peaceful song.

Breathing it in, I am silent and still.

CRR 4-12-23

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How To Be Inspired

Today is Day 11 of National Poetry Month and the prompt for today was to write a “form poem”. A quick Google search revealed there are as many as 168 poetic forms. Who knew? Not this poet! I ended up choosing one that I’ve never done before, a “Blackout Poem”, which involves blacking out the words in an article or piece of writing and creating your own new poem. This is my messy little creation.

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Just Another Monday In America

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Today is Day 10 of National Poetry Month. My day started off very peaceful and Zen with a morning yoga class, followed by a flat tire which I got fixed, and then my car stalled out, so it’s now at the Honda dealership getting diagnosed. It’s also raining and dreary and I don’t feel motivated to do much of anything. Luckily, I’m retired and don’t have to. Another thing I don’t have to do today is mourn one of my friends or loved ones being killed in a mass shooting while at the bank. But other people do, and that continues to make my heart hurt.America is a gun” and that has to change.

Today’s mass shooting in Louisville, Kentucky is the 146th for the year. Today is the 100th day of this year.

So, all I have for you is this photo of how I feel and a sarcastic plea for change, in the form of a Haiku.

Nothing to see here.

Just another mass shooting.

Let our freedoms ring.

CRR 4-10-23

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A Spiritual Guide For Emptying a Bath

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When the salt has drawn out the toxic darkness

and opened your pores to receiving light,

when your body’s ropes have loosened

and your soul’s buoyancy returns,

when your heartbeat matches the earth’s vibration 

and your lungs are filled with the fragrance of hope,

then, and only then, lift the tub’s stopper,

allowing the detritus of all you have carried 

to flow down and away, 

as the newborn freshness of your spirit 

declares you ready to gather flowers once again.

CRR

4-9-23

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This Week’s Micro-joys

Many Thanks to my new friend and fellow poet, Daryl Morrison Woke for today’s prompt for Day 8 of National Poetry Month. Every day isn’t perfect and some of them absolutely suck, but we have to keep our hearts and eyes open to the laughs and smiles in-between the tears.

photo credit to Jacqueline Mungui’a on Upsplash

The innocent smile of a stranger’s child in a shopping cart.

The heart-shaped bowl that sits on my desk holding the amethyst hearts

my husband gifts me on every anniversary.

The green light today at every single intersection.

That first sip of coffee in the sunlight

streaming onto my lanai in the quiet early morning.

My ocean sound machine for days when I don’t travel there.

The neighbor who told me I looked so pretty the other day.

All the books surrounding me, read and unread,

in piles and on shelves, calling my name.

Knowing that my husband saves every little post-it note

I’ve ever written him.

Really mouth-watering pizza and Greek Salad at The Bronx House.

Ritually burning the jasmine candle from my oldest granddaughter,

every time I sit down to write.

The 2 ounces of celebratory Prosecco left in the bottle from last night.

The box of Junior Mint Eggs I bought myself.

My adult daughter saying that she wanted to hear her mama’s voice.

Memories of joy and fun-filled Easters with children and grands,

in a year I won’t be with any of them.

CRR 4-8-23

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A Nonet Meets A Blank Page

Welcome dear readers to Day 7 of National Poetry Month. I’m giving myself a gold star today for completing 7 poems in a row. This month is all about showing up consistently and accepting the challenge. So far, so good.

Today’s prompt was two-fold. Write about a blank page and write it in the form of an “nonet”. A “nonet” is a 9 line poem with descending numbers of syllables in them, from 9 to 1.

Here’s what I came up with!

Now the white expanse silently screams.

You call yourself a writer-girl?

Seriously? What you got?

I don’t have all day now!

You’re killin me Scout!

Where are your words?

Let me guess!

They’re lost?

Argh!!

CRR 4-7-23

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“The Persistence of Memory”

Salvador Dali -1931

Welcome to Day 6 of National Poetry Month! Today’s prompt was more complex than the previous 5 have been, but it came together fairly quickly for me, which is always a nice surprise when it happens. The prompt called for me to combine:

  • someone I used to know well but with whom I’m no longer in touch
  • a job I used to have, but no longer do
  • a piece of art that struck me
  • and end it with an unanswerable question

I was dazzled by her accent,

and the graceful ballerina-like way she walked.

The full-length mirror in our hallway

witnessed my emulation

when no one else was there,

me imagining its laughter

as it observed my comical efforts,

a newborn giraffe

trying to understand its legs.

When we moved, as we always did,

I missed her everything,

and knew for a fact

that if she could just be my sister,

my unremarkable, “Clutzy Carol” self

would be undeniably cool, like her.

My practice must have paid off,

as I vividly remember

the steps I took one night 20 years later,

carrying a tray of dinners

through a golden, candle-lit room,

serving an exceptionally attractive couple

who remarked how elegantly I moved,

time melting away,

like in that Dali painting I remembered,

as that smiling baby giraffe in the hallway mirror

glowed from the inside

and sashayed away wondering.

Where is Julie now?

CRR

4-6-23

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Our Journey To Define “Me

A 16th century CE oil painting by Caravaggio depicting Narcissus the handsome youth of Greek mythology who fell in love with his own reflection. (Galleria Nazionale d’Arte Antica, Rome)

Today is Day 5 of National Poetry Month and the prompt I chose involved relating to a favorite or familiar myth.

Like the hunter Narcissus 

it’s been said that we see 

our reflection in everything 

as we explore our own “me”.

From the fathomless sea-bed

to atop the highest of clouds

in mother’s amniotic fluid

to our burial shrouds.

Toward self-actualization

we evolve and redefine

others’ perceived definitions 

swim in memory’s brine.

Immortality not granted 

withdrawn from the deal 

the journey to self- love

Echo’s whispers can’t reveal.

CRR

4-5-23

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Eyes

It’s Day 3 of National Poetry Month and today’s prompt was “connections”. I thought of how we really “see” a person when we take the time to stare into their eyes, how a fleeting glance from a passing stranger can touch us so surprisingly deeply, and how so much can be communicated without saying a word. 

Eyes.

They speak in a language all their own.

No attachments to voice box or chords,

yet the consonants and vowels connect there,

emanating from the river of soul 

that runs through a venous landscape, 

finding expression in creativity,

connection to like minds,

and a home in its “anam cara”.

Eyes.

They speak in a language all their own,

conveying so much,

yet capable of veiling 

infinite microcosms of pain.

CRR

4-3-23

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Where Are The Birds?

Today’s prompt for Day 2 of National Poetry Month was “Birds” and oh so coincidently, this scene occurred this morning…

A mottled hint of blue

barely peeking out from above

where the canvas of clouds

spoke of hidden dreams

and imagined places beyond and through.

The sun flirting and smiling shyly,

playing hard to get

as the rhythm of the tide

kept time with our breaths.

Two hearts,

one born of the other,

beating their way toward forgiveness

and inhaling peace,

as they wondered,

“Where are the birds?”

CRR 4-2-23

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This Poet Will Keep Trying

Today marks the beginning of April and National Poetry Month, when I once again attempt to create a poem a day. I’ve included a sampling from years past, ( have you browsed my HUGE archive?) along with the very unrefined wordsmithery I mustered up this morning. Enjoy what strikes your fancy and toss the rest. I wish you a day of many smiles and maybe a little fun April Foolery.

 “In This Language”

Linguistics,

etymology,

semantics,

irrelevant.

More ancient than Tamil,

Sanskrit,

or Greek.

No interpreters

required.

No translators

needed.

Only tongues

to taste

the universal,

antediluvian,

conveyor of love.

CRR

4-1-18

Peace and Love

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A Grand Abecedarian Poem

Ask any grandparent and they will likely say that their grandchildren are the purest sources of joy in their life. That would certainly be my response, as I truly feel they are “GRAND”. For most of us, they are sources of infinite delight with comparatively minimal responsibility. Two of my favorite sayings about grandchildren include:

“Grandchildren fill a space in your heart you never knew was empty.” Unknown

“If I had known how wonderful it would be to have grandchildren, I’d have had them first.” -Lois Wyse

One of my neighbors even has a sign declaring “Grandchildren are the reward for not killing your teenagers,” a notion that many of us can figuratively and laughingly relate to.

I have 4 grandchildren, each of them unique and owning their own special real estate in my heart. The oldest is 15 and the subject of today’s Abecedarian Poem, a form I’m trying for the first time and one which needs no explanation, as you will discover below.

A Poem For E

Because you have no idea how magnificent you are

casually being intelligent, brave, witty, kind, strong and beautiful,

dedicated to giving your all to everything you do,

entering our hearts from your

first breath outside the womb.

Gregarious girl, tasting life one

hope-filled handful at a time,

inviting us all to do the same, finding the

joy in a mailbox lizard and insisting all the

kritters have souls and wanting to adopt and

love every single last one of them.

Making your own path, a seeming

natural at everything you attempt, never

outwardly afraid, embodying the mantra “everything is

possible”, discovering who you are, a

quintessentially perfect part of the cosmos

regarded by those that love you as our

Sun, allowing us to see

the world through your unclouded eyes and

unhardened heart with the

verve of youth, and a

wellspring of joy, a

Xena warrior princess in your quest to define

yourself. You are the supercalifragilisticexpialidociously

zestful young woman that we would drive to Hawaii for.

CRR

3-3-23

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If I Could

If I could…

If there was a genie, and a wish,

a portal, a god

who didn’t let angels like her

die,

before they were ready

or done,

before they could shower their 13 great grandchildren with love.

If I could

I’d show her the tiny leaf

of the orchid I just found peeking out

from under the rock

where I thought it had died.

I’d make her a cup of coffee

and her favorite snickerdoodle cookie to dip in it.

I’d hold her hands and marvel

at the grace, love and softness

still in them,

after a lifetime of hard work and undeserved heartache.

If I could

I’d put my now white-haired head

next to hers,

and laugh at their likeness.

If I could

I’d share all the things

I know would make her smile.

I’d say all the things

I didn’t know I should have,

before I couldn’t.

If I could.

CRR

1-23-23

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Just Breathe

I’ve been working on this recently, when I haven’t been overwhelmed with anxiety about not writing and a hundred other things. I know I’m not alone and I know it both IS and IS’NT this simple, but we have to start somewhere. I figure the best place to start is where it all begins and ends. With the breath.

Sitting alone at the beach on this cloudy day,

so many emotions, some flowing, some stay.

On the way here, a hospital, where today someone will die,

but alive and well at this moment, I can exclaim with a sigh-

Life is pain and joy and we each feel it all,

rich or poor, young, old, short or tall.

Waves crash and a tiny shorebird pecks for his meal,

this moment of peace and plenty, past or future cannot steal.

That’s it, all we have is our little slice of now,

in it lies everything, the answer to how,

we’ll get to and through, the next steps on our walk,

one breath at a time, with the fierceness of the hawk.

CRR

1-2-23

  • PS- Please check out my archive. I’ve been writing here for almost 12 years, some years prolifically, others not as much, but I’d like to think there’s something here for everyone.
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Why Bother?

Because right now, there is someone
out there with
a wound in the exact shape
of your words.

Sean Thomas Doughtery

I’ve spent the last week sick with bronchitis and a nasty sinus infection. It follows that I’ve spent much of that time in bed, although not nearly enough time sleeping, due to the persistent coughing. My lack of physical activity appears to have transmuted itself into a flood of frenetic mental activity in the middle of the night. My autonomic nervous system has shown absolutely no respect for “normal” brain rest and renew hours.

During this period, I’ve managed to solve exactly zero world problems, nor even any of my own, but the down time did allow some of the emotional baggage I’ve stuffed away (pushed way down into the salt of my soul) to begin cathartically bubbling up from the ebony places I’d thought I’d so expertly hidden them in, deep within the crypts* of my gut. Over the years and through much practice, I’ve become quite adept at stowing a myriad of unbidden, untimely, unpleasant, and uncomfortable thoughts, events and memories into those crypts.

Whether we are aided by enzymes secreted deep within our digestive system, or we engage in an emotional reconciliation process to deal with our issues/emotions fully, the sciences of gastroenterology and psychiatry tell us that what we take in, what we ingest, both literally and figuratively, either gets digested there or becomes immobilized there, embedding itself in the mitochondria, like stow-away hazardous material, inflaming its surroundings and interrupting potentially peaceful days and nights.

I’ve struggled in the last 6 months of so with the discipline required to be fully engaged in my writing practice. My stubbornness and unwillingness to “appropriately alter/package” my work in order to have it deemed “marketable”, has seemingly slammed the door to my creativity and opened another to the “why bother” section of my ever so handy rationalization storeroom.

In the haunting 3am hour of this morning, I came upon Doughtery’s poem and rose to get a pen and a journal, his words inserting themselves ever so gently into one of my wounds and opening the bulging suitcase of a crypt I’ve been attempting to keep zipped up. Apparently my body has been trying to tell me I’ve exceeded the poundage limit for flight and therefore must empty some things out to lighten my load, which I’m feeling like I finally have the energy to do.

So dear reader, if you’re currently plagued by thoughts of “why bother”, whatever the context may be, although it may not immediately be clear, Rumi and I are here to remind you that there IS a reason you should.

“As you start to walk on the way, the way appears.”
Rumi

Peace and Love

*Crypts of Lieberkuhn -intestinal glands named after German physician and founder, Jonathan Nathanel Lieberkuhn 1711-1756

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A Family I Wasn’t Born Into

Has a refrigerator full of tasty things

and my tiny stomach is never empty.

There’s an actual table with chairs to eat at and 

the air around my little head 

buzzes with plenty and comfort and 

love and laughter floats through their rooms

like a feather on a warm, summer wind.

A family I wasn’t born into

has a bed for everyone, with a soft puffy pillow,

and the sheets smell like honeysuckle and sunshine

and not like the laundromat costs too much.

Someone helps me make mine and

place my stuffed animal friends just so, every day and 

I never find my mommy there unwakeable.

A family I wasn’t born into

takes their children to school every day

and sings silly songs on the way and

never wakes me in the middle of the night 

with yelling or crying or to make me go 

somewhere dark and scary

to get something that mommy needs 

so she’ll stop shaking and throwing up.

A family I wasn’t born into

has children that never have to wonder 

if they’ll be sleeping in their car that night,

mosquito bitten, scared and sweating or freezing.

They take bubble baths in big clean tubs

with toy ducks and play boats and 

 they have freshly washed pajamas that fit them and

 that never leave too-tight marks on their skin.

A family I wasn’t born into 

knows where they’ll be next week or next month

and has routines that make me feel safe and warm

and plans for things they all look forward to and 

those things will actually happen for them.

Like the sun that rises every morning and 

for a while, makes me remember how to smile.

CRR 

12-23-21

This one is for all of the innocent children. The ones waiting and longing for a childhood untainted by chaos and neglect. The ones who’ve never known what it means to be carefree, to not be hungry or ill-clothed. The ones who’ve seen and experienced far too much, and yet not enough good, not enough love.

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Christmas Memories

The smell of applesauce cake and coffee

wafting through the “Christmas Spotless” house.

Multicolored lights

dancing on the silver tinseled tree.

The sound of Momma’s magic hands

curling ribbon 

for the very last of the presents

she’d stayed up half the night wrapping.

A bright orange tangerine

placed into each of our red felt stockings.

Little Man’s small fry fingers

tapping on my shoulder.

The heat of his four-year-old breath

whispering in my ear,

“Sissy, has he come yet?”

Tiptoeing hand in hand 

into moments glimmering with magic.

Our wide-eyed dreams fulfilled.

CRR 

12-5-21

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Deja Vu Night Moves

I stealthily rise so as not to awaken my dear C-PAP masked husband.

No matter how hard I try to be quiet, 100% of the time, my right knee will crack

and inevitably signal that I am up,

having once again succumbed to the vagabond words and ideas

that held a clandestine meeting

during which they organized a 3AM flash mob in my brain.

As they dance across the neural highways between my ears,

I try in vain to memorize the motions, already having lain awake for an hour,

silently willing myself to release them en masse

into the cool blackness that fills the room.

With each exhale, I imagine them flitting like Monarchs

into a journal I’ll open in a just a few hours and read with surprise.

The big ones, problems I have absolutely no power to solve,

(yet encyclopedic in weight as they press on my chest),

I release for the ten thousandth time with a 12 step admission.

The heart doesn’t listen.

Stepping softly and gently closing the bedroom door,

I make my way to my office, bypassing the kitchen and coffee,

because it’s just too early yet.

I grab one of my journals and a pen and stare

at the mammoth emptiness of the page,

knowing I’ve been in this moment before and

will without doubt, be here again.

CRR

9-23-21

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Luck

As luck would have it I’m up at 3:15 AM this Friday the 13th, pondering the concept of luck because it’s today’s writing prompt. Do I believe it exists? Have I experienced it? When have I had it? What kind have I had? Can we humans actually create our own luck? Why does it seem that some people have nothing but bad luck? Or do they actually? Is there a hidden message or meaning in bad luck? Can something good come from bad luck? Why do some individuals seem to have all the luck? Or do they? Do we misuse the term? Is “luck” just a filler word we plug in to a sentence when there’s no perceived reason or logical explanation for an event occurring? Some say there’s no such thing as luck and that everything happens for a reason. I’d argue with some of the “reasons”. “Of course you would” says my husband, who claims I should have been a lawyer instead of a teacher given my irrepressible urge to argue about everything.)

This semi- neurotic stream of consciousness and the fact that I forgot to take my nighttime allergy pill are two of the reasons I’m up in the middle of this particular night. Secondary are voter suppression, injustice, inequality, COVID-19, stress, hormones and the fact that I tend to overthink everything. Because I’m me, I had to look up the definition:

From Merriam-Webster Dictionary:

-the events or circumstances that operate for or against an individual

-a force that brings good fortune or adversity

I found a gold chain on a beach once. Was that good fortune or was I simply more observant than the other folks who I saw walk right by it?  

I won a wedding dress once and went on to marry an exploitative monster. (1st husband, not the 2nd, there are other nouns and adjectives for him). Was that an omen or luck? And for those keeping count and while we’re on the subject, my 3rd husband is the absolute love of my life and one of the 7 best things that ever happened to me, (the other 6 are my kids and grandkids). 

Is luck simply the result of hard work or diligence? Is it just being in the right or wrong place at a certain moment in time? Do the stars control it? Do the direct or indirect actions of ourselves, our ancestors, or others determine  or contribute to it? In the U.K. they use the term “hard luck”. I like the connotation involved with that. Tough times and unfavorable circumstances are certainly hard/difficult.

If you’re still reading and wondering where I’m going with this, welcome to my world. At a minimum, I’ve given you something to ponder today when you run out of things to worry and wonder about. Just make sure you’re not daydreaming so much that you forget about staying safe and paying attention to your surroundings. Wouldn’t want you to incur any bad luck. On the other hand you just might get lucky and have some kind of epiphanic eureka moment. Let me know if you do and I might ponder that tomorrow when I’m up in the middle of the night!

Peace and Love

*Originally written on Friday Oct. 13th, 2020. Discovered again on Friday the 13th of August, 2021 at 3:30 am. What luck! 

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My Beautiful Boy

On Friday April 28th, I lost my firstborn, my baby boy. Dewitt Talmage Smith III . He suffered 2 cardiac arrests and the resulting anoxia left him in a vegetative state. I was forced to make the hardest decision of my life, to remove him from life support. He left this world peacefully, listening to the ocean sounds he loved, surrounded by family, and as an organ donor whose life saving legacy will help others. I’ll meet you in the ocean baby boy.💔

My daughter, Caitlyn, has set up a GoFundMe for his 3 children. If you’d like to contribute to their future, anything would be appreciated. Please go to: https://gofund.me/b4b41c90

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