Things I thought about today.
I woke up feeling guilty because I didn’t have a to-do plan for the day.
I feel guilty just sipping my coffee in pajamas and watching The Today Show.
I should be going and doing and achieving something outside these walls.
I cleaned the sliding glass doors to the patio and the french doors off our master bedroom.
I did the laundry, emptied the dishwasher, made the bed.
I entered all my receipts into Quicken and reconciled all my home financial accounts.
I still feel lazy.
People are being denied rights.
Children are crying for their parents.
People are hungry and hurting.
I signed some petitions. I wrote some politicians.
I tried not to feel despair.
I remember that my brother survived 12 years in prison and I have no right to complain about anything.
I haven’t written in weeks, haven’t submitted anything lately and wonder if I can really keep calling myself a writer?
It’s 105 outside and I don’t want to go outside but I long to swim in the ocean. With a full size tube of SPF 50 and rash guard on of course, because I do have a bunch of pre-cancer that’s being treated on my chest. At least it’s not on my face.
My daughter called me and I smiled.
My husband touched base with me from work and I smiled.
I watched Ellen and I smiled.
I decided I did enough today and I smiled.
My message for you is to smile.
You are enough. You’ve done enough.
I wonder if I should post this.
It will be okay.
Peace and Love